Back From the Mountain I Am

I am back from my Breakthrough Retreat, Mountain Top Experience, with Heart Connexion Ministries! Wow, what a trip it has been!! I met God in some very new ways, and I found God waiting for me in a few dark corners of my soul that I forgot was there!

I found something over the past couple of weeks that I didn’t even know I lost. I found ME! I was reminded of who I am. I was reminded that I am more than my W-2 or my 1099-misc, or the lack thereof. I was reminded that as a child of God I was created to change the world. I was reminded that before life and bad decisions and a broken spirit piled debt & shame on me that I was just a little boy in the back yard who was convinced he was a hero with a BB gun killing bad guys and making the world a better place. I was reminded, on my mountain top journey, that I am still that hero, I was simply blinded and confused by my shame.

I am walking taller now. I am walking prouder now. I am walking again with a sense of passion! I actually look forward to the many fights that will surely come my way. I will cower no more.

So I am back. My finances are still a wreck. The fact is that my cleaning business has failed. The fact is that I do not have a job. The fact is that I do not get an unemployment check. The fact is that this is not the best time in the history of America to look for a job. The fact is that my wife still has one year of nursing school to go. The fact is that I have been away from paid, full-time ministry work for many years, BUT I am back! I have remembered who I am! I know what I do and I know how to do it well. I know my purpose and I will find a fit for me very soon. I have a wife and kids who love me, and we will make it through this even if we need to go backwards financially for a few years.

I am a Passionate, Driven, and Worthy man. I will change the world through the Love that God has shown me as I live out MY Life; a Grace Light in the dark world of shame.

scott